my ruined life when love comes.....

before you read....i'm sorry if i put a lot of 'shit' word in this post....

a couple weeks ago, i met a beautiful girl..(SHIT)..but i never speak with her. i was nervous in that time...that was a love at the first sight. wew, that was so rough MAN!!!....i'm not kidding about this. but you should know my life before i met her....

before i met her, i ate 4-5 times a day, rare to pray, always ride my bike with full speed..no shit...
but after I MET HER.....thats all changed....MAN...i can't stand with this situation...SHIT-SHIT-SHIT~.....you know what...i've got this feeling is defferent with any other women that i like....shit man.....

you know what....after that feel came to me, a ate 2 times a day, not so rare to pray, ride my bike so slow

i tried to close with her with all of my power and mind....BUT WHAT DID I'VE GOT!!!!!!!!!!!SHE WAS IN RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT
sorry about my temper....

but....at the day before i knew that....my friend give me an advice...he said,"hey man...if you like with that lady, please reduce your dream...reduce your hope from that lady....don't have too muvh hope from that lady...i'ts good for you...in my past...i was at your positions...same as you....but that girl have been relationship with some body....at that time i was hoping too much....that broke my heart so deep man.....that's called pain...that's so painfull....."

after he told me...i was thinking...thinking every time...before i slept, i was thinking too...

and i knew it............SHIT-SHIT99999x....~
soo....when I knew that....i didn't have a heart-pain anymore....(lie)
so i keep smiling to my life...and i keep smiling with this situations....

THIS LOVE MAKE ME CHANGE EVEN I DIDN'T GET HER....